New Beginning

Today was a day of... confusion. I started my day going to the 24hour Fitness and working out some and then I took my shower and came home to dress for my interview. I wasn't nervous at all and when I got there and into her office all that changed. She was asking me about my HS and if it was an alternative, (yes because HS isn't an option for pregnant 16 year old girls) why there were breaks between some of the jobs, why I left some after short times. She asked me so many questions about the places I had been that I started to feel shamed and thought it looked bad for me. I know that some jobs where because the company didn't have that "position" available anymore so I had to go, I know that one was bought out and my position wasn't moving on with it, and the other the company went out of business. I feel like I had to defend myself but really it's just embarrassing that I don't have a record of like 5 years here and 7 years here etc. I just haven't been sure about my direction in life, along with being dealt some hard positions at companies that were apparently having a hard time as well and now that I am 35 years old I think that I have a better understanding about where to go in order to maintain stability in my life.

Well whether I get the job or not is fine. I mean I would like it but it will once again be an adjustment for me and the family. It's only 3 days a week so I feel like it's not really that demanding on me, but getting up early again will be a challenge. Plus I want to make sure that I keep doing my workouts and getting this weight off me.

I didn't do any work out's last week (with the exception of one boxing practice and squats session with Ricardo) but I am determined to make this work here, so I just have to get up each day and try again to make that day better for myself and if I don't then I will just try again tomorrow. I pray for happiness today, rest and a brand new adventure tomorrow. Amen